||words cant describe how I feel
It seems like everything lately has happened to me..but this one..is the worst.
I have been balling my eyes out for the past 10 hrs, not being able to sleep because of this and I love erik so much but...
I finally got the guts to tell him how I felt. THis is exactly what I said "erik I want to tell you straight up...ever since we stopped going out...i still reallly liked u and i never stopped. and when we were going out, you stole my heart, and you still have it, and you mean everything to me, and the only reason I went out with other people is to try to get over you, but i can't and I...i...love you.." and he said he just wants to be friends, which is ok, because I can work on that. and we were talking and all that. We talked online, on the phone. but here's the bad part..
At exactly 12;47 am, erik told me he liked shelbie. he told me he would like to go out with her, and he told me that he REALLY likes her, and he told me he's sorry but I hope i understand all this. At that point, I didn't know what to say. Then him and shelbie get into the "oh i like you, do you like me?" crap.
I have loved you erik since the beginning of 5th grade. I never stopped and I never will. could u just..open you'r eyes? Im in love with you. Forget about all the fights and all the crap people say, I don't care. You have anything and everything that I want. Word's cant express how I feel for you. Everyone knows it. Even your own mother knows that I love you. I thought that the person I loved, would'nt be the last to know all this. I could say I love you a million times and it wouldn't max my love for you. Do you know how many papers i have saying "I love erik" on it? whoa! I can and will ball my eyes out for you, because you are worth it. The way you look at me and smile at me makes everything bad go away and the rest of the day is just perfect. YOu don't even have to look at me. Just..say my name, or call me or talk to me online. That makes all the pain anybody else gave me go away because of you. I can't even imagine how my life would be without you in it. I have done so much with you. You came into my world, and you are my world. Yeah, that may sound weird cuz were only...12? but...I love you..I can't say it enough and there's no other way to say it. The 9 months i went out with you were the best month's of my life, because I was with you. WHen I see you, or when im with you, my knees get weak, i can't breath that well, i get really happy, my stomach are in knots, and i can't talk, i don't know what to say, i even get giggley. But all those things that come to me when I'm with you..are signs..of love.
I love you so much.. Please..don't do this to me.